My heart cries and my soul dances.
I feel like filth. Amid the stench, my mind crawls back to you. While my heart forgets, my spirit remembers; I close my eyes and feel you embracing me. I become warm inside, and the thing in my chest starts to leap for joy. I open my eyes and whisper, “God, author of my salvation; my redeemer.”
I’m left to ponder on how you loved me before the beginning of time, and how you watch over my prayers. The great and mighty God; who can compare to you? You sit in the heavens and make the earth your footstool. You who parted the Red Sea and brought down the walls of Jericho. As mighty as you are, who am I that you love me? Do you care for me? Do you truly want me to cast my cares? I committed a sin I cannot express with words, can I still boldly approach your throne of Grace? Would I obtain mercy? I ponder all day and at dawn, you whisper yes.
My comforter, you wield my heart and calm the storm within. You silence the tempest of my soul. My heart will forever sing your praises; my feet will dance in your presence — you who tells the wind where to go and when to come. The heavens sing of your greatness; all of creation will worship you.
I’m here, without an iota of what I’m meant to do or where I’m supposed to go. My heart is opened, use me. My body is weak, but my spirit is willing–use me. I have no plans, use me. I stand before you naked; search my heart and prune what does not reflect your glory.
You, who delivered Israel from Egypt and Daniel from the jaws of the lion, have delivered me from the shackles of death and brought me into the kingdom of your son. My mouth is filled with songs of your glory; I will sing them for eternity. Your tender mercy is forever.
Help my tongue to illuminate your light. Guide my heart to love. Order my steps in your ways and break down every wall I’ve built to hide the parts of me I’m ashamed of. Hold my hands, touch my heart, still my mind, flood my eyes with light and make me conscious of your spirit that dwells within. Please help me to know you. Take away sorrow from my life, give me eternal joy.
Here I am with hearts bowed and opened to bring you my sincere worship. Here I am sounding to the world that you are GOD alone. No one, no principality, no power, nothing named or nameless, nothing that walks, creeps or flies can stand beside you or share your glory.
God abeg.
I’m Seuncaleb, Omo ìfẹ́, and these words are meant to be felt.
